I went through something when I was younger that no one should.

What could i have done diffrent¿ There is no sutch thing i have Been trouh that hurts my heart more than this. I feel stupid, i feel num. But most of all i feel discusting. I cant remember how many times i went in the shower to try to wash my pain away. When my Mom Ask me to talk to Somone i feel like i have nothing to say. I dont know how im going to make you understand my pain. When i was younger i went tru somthing no one should og thru. Its your moms biggest fear and yor dads biggest worry. The day IT happend was A normal day, my best friend at that time seemd like A normal person. I didnt know what she was capebol of. That night was terrible, she held me down at the flor and tutched me plages i didnt want to be tutchd. I cried a lot. We had A game the day after IT happend i remember feeling this feeling i have never ever felt befor. IT was absolutly A terreble feeling. I was only 9 years old. Right away i told my parentes, they did not understand.